and that's couplewang!

hmm I keep on getting lonely pangs :/
I'm talking about like oh I'm so alone, I mean like
well I don't know if you've ever been in this sort of circumstance but like when you've got loads of best friends and you love them all the bits but all your best friends also have boyfriends and girlfriends and you know however well you get on with them you're never going to be their favourite person in the whole world
or at least not their one and only favourite people
human beans are selfish/vain by nature I guess, the reason we want to have relationships is because of the feeling that to the other person you are the most important person in the world bar no one at that they will always do anything for you over anyone else and vice versa
I dunno I think relationships/love boils down to a join security that you know you'll always have someone else, I'd quite like to have that completely security

maybe I'm just being spoilt, I shouldn't really complain (if that's what that is ^^^)at least I have friends and amazing they are :)

but I do still feel like this some of the time
which is when I normally drown myself is culture ^^
which is good considering I have LOTS of books to read and stuff to watch :)
I have:
The Original Published Poetry of Jim Morrison
Tony Harrison: Selected poems

Heart of Darkness, Youth and The End of the Tether by Joseph Conrad
The COMPLETE Stories, Plays and Poems of Oscar Wilde (thanks zac :D)
Tom Stoppard Plays: Night & Day, Indian Ink and Hapgood
The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest by Ken Kesey (I also need to watch the film again :)
As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
The Shadow of A Gunman by Sean O' Casey
oh and I need to finish reading the Insect Play by the Capek Brothers

I also have Don Quixote which I need to read at some point :D


Dvd's: I have the rest of my Spaced boxset to watch ^_^ (series two)
Harvey
What's Eating Gilbert Grape?
The Untouchables
and Ferris Bueller's Day Off (which I intend to save til the next time Liv comes round)

oh and ALL the films on the hard drive on the TV downstairs
of which I will probably watch The Player next :)


it's sad but listing them all makes me happy ^_^