oh god oh god oh god

guilt lots of guilt


argh I should be dooo-oo-ing media now

but instead I'm waiting for this stupid thing to finish doing which I KNOW won't work anyWAY

and I have loads of work I should be doing and I have this inate ability to be able to convince myself that 'actually it's not THAT much work' you don't need to do it now

but I do I do

aargh

and I HAVE to do this media thing tonight

and I don't know how long it'll take and ideally I want an early night but I know that won't happen
and I can't leave it and say I'll do it tomorrow in school and I can't do it tomorrow, cos that means there'll be something else hanging over my head cos I won't do that tomorrow

and I've got to do my creative coursework englishy thing for next monday

although I have been having some ideas for that which is good

oooooh I hate this feeling

cos I don't really want to do work ('cos the thing is loading' *rolls eyes*)
but I don't really feel like doing anything


listlessness is the worst feeling in the world